Well it's not really bringing it down, I just kind of thought you got it last week after I told you about what was happening at home.
[ he truly got weird on kazuki last week during memshare because he thought kazuki understood something and proceeded to ignore it, not that kazuki hadn't understood at all. ]
I told you, I'm a few weeks out from graduation. [ "I've...been sort of thinking about my options. Right now I think the plan is probably to go back to school. I dropped out, but...I can catch up, and graduation's not that far anyway. At least with a diploma even if I can't afford college right now I can work and save up until she's out, and then figure stuff out from there." ]
Yeah, I've been getting the sense a few people think that's it. I don't know if that'd be better or worse. [ the way he says it is kind of facetiously though, like he knows he'd actually prefer that to be the case. ]
Do you want the short version or the long version of why? [ ... ] I've had to explain it to some people last week because of memories they saw. I'm...more okay with that now.
[ but the thing is he likes kazuki. like. he wants to actually be friends, and he knows it's a really fucking weird situation and he's not in the mood to make the vibes weird or worse when they've been having a good day. ]
[ if he thinks back on that memory later, he'll probably be able to connect those dots. but for now it's new and shocking for this extreme normie wowee ]
I guess... the short explanation, and we can go from there?
No I meant after...I told them what I told you. [ kazuki was not the only person he tried to explain this to and it didn't stick, is his point. but okay. well. really fucking sorry to this poor normie because: ]
Genetic engineering. I was used for human experimentations six years ago.
...I didn't find out what was happening until it was already too late, so. [ no. ] They found an abnormality in one of my check-ups from school when I was a kid, and I got sent to an institute that specialized in DNA and genome therapy. The director said that I had this really rare disease that would kill me really soon if I didn't start treatment with them. So...I did. And I found out later that all of it was a lie just to start rewriting my genetic code.
Director told me I couldn't tell anybody or he'd stop all treatment and my body would fall apart. [ and...he was twelve. it's a very scary prospect. ] But he was murdered not long after I discovered what was going on.
...Murdered. [ kazuki is like. torn. he would never believe that anyone deserves to be murdered, but this guy definitely deserved something. god. ] Well. At least he couldn't use anyone else by that point.
[ though it was clearly too late for shoma which still isn't great. ]
...he'd been doing experiments on people for a while. He wanted to find a way to achieve immortality. All of his other subjects didn't quite get him the same results. It was just me. [ so. there's the motive. ] One of his other subjects killed him, and while I can't say I'm that sorry about it, it was the same guy who killed my dad. And...you know how that turned out.
Why experiment on yourself when you can use other people until you perfect the formula? [ yes he is still mad, don't mind him. but it fizzles out just as quickly. ]
...physically, yeah, I'm fine. I more or less stopped aging but everything's still healthy from what I can tell. The only thing that's still evolving is my brain. And that's why I picked the avatar. I wanted to make them match for once.
Wish you could've at least gotten a good right hook on that guy. [ shoma is so valid.
...and yeah, he nods at that. ]
Makes sense. [ not hard to see why he'd want that. but, to lighten the mood a little... kazuki looks him up and down, and gives a little grin. ] Still shorter than me, though.
Haha. [ he is, at least, still tall enough to kind of push at his shoulder for being a bully!! ] I would hope I'm a little taller, give me a break.
[ but he considers this... ]
My dad was, like, barely taller than me when he died. And my mom...[ sort of lingering awkward on this, like he's thinking. ] She wasn't that tall either, I think.
No need to explain the thought process behind it, I was just teasing. And who knows? Sometimes you end up taller than both your parents, anyway. Maybe you would've.
Maybe I would've. [ also i'm glad i botched that i meant *i was barely taller than my dad. but regardless, it's a funny little thought. ] Judging by how tall Amame is, too, I still doubt it. But it's one of those things I guess I'll never know. I'm not that worried.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
[ that said, he folds his arms over his chest and seems to consider his next words. ]
Buuuut...I think you were looking for an explanation, right?
no subject
...I don't want to bring down the mood or anything, but if you're okay with it, sure. Hit me.
no subject
[ he truly got weird on kazuki last week during memshare because he thought kazuki understood something and proceeded to ignore it, not that kazuki hadn't understood at all. ]
no subject
Got what, exactly...?
no subject
This is probably what I should actually look like by now. Or as close to an approximation as I can get from thinking about it.
no subject
eloquently, he asks, ] Huh?
[ what the fuck ]
no subject
I told you, I'm a few weeks out from graduation. [ "I've...been sort of thinking about my options. Right now I think the plan is probably to go back to school. I dropped out, but...I can catch up, and graduation's not that far anyway. At least with a diploma even if I can't afford college right now I can work and save up until she's out, and then figure stuff out from there." ]
...we're the same age, Kazuki.
no subject
[ child geniuses happen and this place is already so fucking weird why wouldn't he just accept that ]
Then... how...?
[ if this is a case of being a really late bloomer then kazuki feels really bad for him. yikes. ]
no subject
Do you want the short version or the long version of why? [ ... ] I've had to explain it to some people last week because of memories they saw. I'm...more okay with that now.
[ but the thing is he likes kazuki. like. he wants to actually be friends, and he knows it's a really fucking weird situation and he's not in the mood to make the vibes weird or worse when they've been having a good day. ]
no subject
[ if he thinks back on that memory later, he'll probably be able to connect those dots. but for now it's new and shocking for this extreme normie wowee ]
I guess... the short explanation, and we can go from there?
no subject
Genetic engineering. I was used for human experimentations six years ago.
no subject
Like. You volunteered for it, or...?
[ was this illegal ]
no subject
no subject
What the hell? That's fucked up. Did anyone do anything about that?
no subject
Director told me I couldn't tell anybody or he'd stop all treatment and my body would fall apart. [ and...he was twelve. it's a very scary prospect. ] But he was murdered not long after I discovered what was going on.
no subject
...Murdered. [ kazuki is like. torn. he would never believe that anyone deserves to be murdered, but this guy definitely deserved something. god. ] Well. At least he couldn't use anyone else by that point.
[ though it was clearly too late for shoma which still isn't great. ]
no subject
[ a lot of people die in aini. ]
no subject
[ absolutely delusional, but of course people like that have to take down as many others with them as possible. psychos.
also, damn, what do you even say to something like this? ]
What a nightmare. But you're okay...? Aside from that guy screwing with you?
no subject
...physically, yeah, I'm fine. I more or less stopped aging but everything's still healthy from what I can tell. The only thing that's still evolving is my brain. And that's why I picked the avatar. I wanted to make them match for once.
[ both the inside and the outside. ]
no subject
...and yeah, he nods at that. ]
Makes sense. [ not hard to see why he'd want that. but, to lighten the mood a little... kazuki looks him up and down, and gives a little grin. ] Still shorter than me, though.
no subject
Hey, I had to keep it sort of realistic. I kinda doubt I would've ended up that tall in the first place.
no subject
You're almost as tall as my sister, though.
[ no, shoma is definitely taller. but he's gotta tease. ]
no subject
[ but he considers this... ]
My dad was, like, barely taller than me when he died. And my mom...[ sort of lingering awkward on this, like he's thinking. ] She wasn't that tall either, I think.
no subject
No need to explain the thought process behind it, I was just teasing. And who knows? Sometimes you end up taller than both your parents, anyway. Maybe you would've.
no subject
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)