[ anyway today blows. what a time...nine hours of absolute insanity and...yeah, they found the right answer, but it's hard to decide how to feel about that. either way, when kazuki is out and about, he will likely turn a corner and find shoma sitting in a hallway by himself, fiddling with some stuff on his iris. it's entirely possible it's infinite craft, and while he isn't entirely focused the vibes he's projecting are like a forced sort of calm.
he hears the footsteps though and glances up. hey kazuki. ]
...that...was weird. [ that's a very, very vague and light way of putting it! ]
[ no offense, kid. it's funny that he's projecting calm when kazuki is barely holding his emotions in check - shoma probably felt the anxiety and frustration before he realized who it was coming from. thinking about trial just makes it spike again, but kazuki is trying his best not to let it overwhelm him again. he's just bad at it. ]
[ none taken. he's just kind of absorbing kazuki's demeanor, like he's trying to read the behavior and emotions a little to match into something that will help ease him and agitate him less. ]
It's like...yeah, we solved it and got our answers, but at what cost? I don't think there was ever going to be a good outcome to today no matter what we tried.
...No. There wasn't. [ there never is, is there? his emotions begin to curl in on themselves, all tangling together into one big knot of unpleasantness. ] It doesn't feel right.
It doesn't. [ a familiar spiral. ] But the worst part is that we can't go back and fix it. This is just what happened, all while none of us even really wanted to be here in the first place.
[ listen. kazuki has weird feelings about it, too, but this is all they've got. ]
I guess... We keep going. [ a wisp of distaste as he says that, but also resignation. everyone always just moves on. ] It doesn't sound like they're planning to pause the schedule at all. Brofiise is taken care of, and we're supposed to get information on that planet tomorrow.
Of course there's no pausing because it doesn't affect them. [ there's like. sudden misplaced bitterness for a second before it dips again. ] Wonder when we'll find out about the planet. Tomorrow morning makes the most sense so we can prepare before Monday.
[ mm...interesting to note. he does not even allude to the fact he noticed. ]
This is also true. They're unpredictable at best and careless at worse, so we have to be ready for both scenarios. But...I dunno. Just once I'd like something on this ship to work the way it's supposed to. That's it. I don't think that's a big ask by now.
Maybe they thought because we're so new we wouldn't have a leg to stand on when it comes to complaints. [ the emotion is just. agitation. why would anyone be that dumb. ] We keep being told that even though the Eudora's older it's still a good ship. But I'm wondering if that's just something they keep telling themselves to feel better.
Honestly, it might be. A ship with this many malfunctions... They'd get sued in a heartbeat back home. And they have so much money that they've got no excuse for it.
Supposedly the stipend we're getting is huge. Multiply that by over thirty of us, and thinking about how that's barely a dent for them? Yeah. They have no excuse. [ but he just. sighs again. ]
...at least it's over for now. So that's something.
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he hears the footsteps though and glances up. hey kazuki. ]
...that...was weird. [ that's a very, very vague and light way of putting it! ]
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[ no offense, kid. it's funny that he's projecting calm when kazuki is barely holding his emotions in check - shoma probably felt the anxiety and frustration before he realized who it was coming from. thinking about trial just makes it spike again, but kazuki is trying his best not to let it overwhelm him again. he's just bad at it. ]
Today was an absolute disaster.
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It's like...yeah, we solved it and got our answers, but at what cost? I don't think there was ever going to be a good outcome to today no matter what we tried.
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...No. There wasn't. [ there never is, is there? his emotions begin to curl in on themselves, all tangling together into one big knot of unpleasantness. ] It doesn't feel right.
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I guess... We keep going. [ a wisp of distaste as he says that, but also resignation. everyone always just moves on. ] It doesn't sound like they're planning to pause the schedule at all. Brofiise is taken care of, and we're supposed to get information on that planet tomorrow.
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Morning would make sense, but there's a lot of things they do here that doesn't. I won't be surprised if they hold it until the last second.
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This is also true. They're unpredictable at best and careless at worse, so we have to be ready for both scenarios. But...I dunno. Just once I'd like something on this ship to work the way it's supposed to. That's it. I don't think that's a big ask by now.
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[ he'll just fucking say it ]
Honestly, it might be. A ship with this many malfunctions... They'd get sued in a heartbeat back home. And they have so much money that they've got no excuse for it.
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...at least it's over for now. So that's something.
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The problem is whether it'll happen again or not. Even Brofiise said to be cautious of it, and it sounds like he doesn't get it, either.
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[ but the vibes say that he doesn't think shoma is. things usually just get worse. ]
I wish there was something we could do about it, but without knowing what's really causing it...
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