but yeah. sometimes life isn't fair and your sister gets in trouble for getting rid of certifiable scum. he doesn't know the intricacies of modern law, but he can get the gist of it well enough to nod. ]
I'm still holding hope that time is waiting for us. [ weirder things have happened in zeldaverse. ] But I'm sure she knows that you wouldn't leave without reason.
[ they seem close. he can't imagine how hard it must've been to eventually let her go. ] ...Whatever happened, she seems to be a very good sister to you.
Telling myself that it's waiting is sometimes the only reason I keep going with things here. [ he feels like it's fine to say this. sidon knows shoma's feelings about life, someone who was initially afraid to live and has been trying to be better about it. it isn't anything unusual, he thinks. ]
I'm sure she knows, but just in case. I've gone to see her every day since her arrest, and I was just leaving from seeing her before I woke up in my pod here. [ so like. it'd be weird if he just didn't show up. the rest though... ] I have...a lot of really complicated feelings on it, but it doesn't matter. She's still my sister. [ ... ] Our parents divorced when I was nine, and she chose to go live with our mom and I stayed with Dad. We weren't exactly doing great on our own, so she got a job to try and help us out. Even when she was really busy she'd come by to buy things for me or have dinner with us when she could.
...after my dad died, she took over a lot of things to help me. I was still in elementary school, so there wasn't a lot I could do at the time. So she came by all the time to make sure everything in the house was okay and bring groceries and just spend time with me. But that's Amame. Her biggest problem has always been how much she cares about people without letting people help her when she's in over her head. [ ... ] But she's best, and I definitely would've given up a while ago without her.
[ as. evidenced by what his memory just said. can't really get around the truth of "the last six years were hell and i wanted to die but amame always cheered me up." ]
[ yeah he already knows he's a MISERABLE LITTLE MANS, but he's made great strides. part of the biggest reliefs during their VR party was seeing that shoma was hanging in there.
so while this is a difficult story, his emotions are tender-hearted, softer than usual. he gives him a good squeeze. ]
I'm so grateful you had each other!
[ because if they didn't, shoma wouldn't be here; sidon's an optimist, but he's very aware of what could've happened. he is very poignantly aware of how hard amame must have worked—the struggles she must have put herself through, to support her loved ones. the things she must not have said, somehow expecting shoma not to notice. this is a pair of siblings that has gone through the gauntlet together. ]
...I understand though. With someone like that, all you want to do is return the favor. It's your turn to support her, and I know you'll do it with as much love and care as she did for you. If I were you— [ he stops and starts, laughs, a soundless puff ] I wouldn't have let anyone easily take her away, either.
[ please share some of your optimism with the rest of us, sidon. he would love to be an optimist about literally anything, all of his dried up sometime saturday night. but there's a brief pulse of fondness from hearing him say this. it's both something fond from the sweet sentiment and then something grateful for hearing sidon understands where he's coming from. ]
That's exactly it. I want to return it and take care of her until she doesn't need me to anymore. I don't know what that looks like yet, but...I don't plan on quitting until I figure it out. [ there's a pause though, and he considers this curiously. ] ...you'd probably feel the same about yours, wouldn't you?
[ he remembers sidon's decommission message, and he can sort of guesstimate that sidon no longer has his sister given he referenced it as reuniting with mipha, but. ]
[ there's truly like (4) optimists on this ship, they're a dying breed. but yeah, they can vibe as the baby brothers of their respective families; he gets it. shoma's determination is something so deeply familiar to him, enough that he answers with a little smile, despite the subject. truly everyone should've just ignored his decommission message. ]
Hah, I would! I do. [ his emotions reflect a very old, persisting ache, but one that's grown less acute over time. ] I have no stronger conviction than the one I carry for my sister's sake.
[ when you have someone who loves and supports you so much, of course you want to give back to them once you're able to. but whatever the void can just give him the lore!! ]
[ first of all. NOOOOOOOOO WHAT IS HE SO SMALL FOOOOOOOOR. SWEET SIDON.
anyway that's not what shoma's thinking. he has seen baby shark before. instead, he's letting this memory play out and he finds himself already knowing how this will likely end. there are way too many familiar feelings in all of this. danger that's threatening you and your loved ones. a sister who decides to take it upon herself to be the one to step in and fight. watching the person you love the most fail to keep a promise of coming back safely. the world being a little colder and darker because the sun's gone.
the difference, of course, is amame's just in jail. mipha's gone forever, and even thinking about that is a little devastating. when the memory peters out he finds himself looking at sidon silently as if the gauge what to say. granted his emotions are basically the equivalent of a crushing sadness even if his expression shows zero of that, but it's fine. ]
...she was right to believe in you. [ this is what he settles on first. ] It's a big responsibility though.
very unfortunately, they have a lot in common with their siblings. it helped sidon sympathize, but is also what makes him grimace as the void fades out again—he hadn't wanted to put shoma put this, specifically. he inflicts a sadness on him without meaning to.
but sidon's own feelings are less crushing. a very mirrored grief, yet one with its edges sanded down over decades. it always hurts on remembering, but it does stop being... everything, all of the time. ]
...I'm grateful you think so. [ he really is. ] I take on that responsibility without fear or hesitation. But it will take another century yet to prove I am worthy of it.
[ he smiles though, patting shoma's shoulder. ]
I hope it isn't presumptuous to say I understand... a little of what you feel. [ not all of it. just some. ] Which is why I've insisted you have much more ahead of you, even if there are moments where it seems the sun has set forever.
[ yeah. yeeeeah. it is likewise easy to sympathize and that's the trouble, but at the same time there's something a little admirable in the way sidon carries himself even with these hardships placed on him.
time heals all wounds or whatever, but...not really. not completely. it just makes it easier to adjust it into your everyday life than letting it consume him. it's been six years since his father was killed and shoma still finds him trying to figure out how to get over it. and now amame's being taken away, and that'll take time, too.
but here's sidon who lost the person he loved the most and he's still so...this. ]
And when that century passes you'll find I was right anyway and you're worthy of it. [ easily said, like he knows a damn thing about zora society. but he thinks this over, smiling faintly before shaking his head. ]
It's not presumptuous at all, no. I think you understand some things a little better than other people here. [ just some. but... ] ...I have more ahead of me than you may really know, and that's always been the problem. Every time I think about how long my life's going to be, the idea of not being able to grow past these things is a little more terrifying.
[ somehow, since sidon's died and come back, shoma's gotten better at actually using his words and expressing things instead of going ... about his own emotions. ]
But then again, in that same vein, that time means there's more time to meet other people to help during those moments those things are too difficult to deal with. [ even if it means i'm leaving so many of them soon. ] I want to try and see what's ahead. ..."If happiness can't last forever, neither can sorrow."
[ he grins a little at the faith he's given, precious as it is. even if he's usually the one out there cheering people on, of course return fire means a lot. ]
...Thank you, Shoma. I'll believe you.
[ but more pressingly, between the VR and the mentions he's made, shoma's lifespan is obviously strange for a human. so he sobers and offers him a sympathetic look, tail swishing. ]
That is the weakness of long lived peoples. [ having so many years to carry regret. he's seen it in plenty of his elders, that accumulation of sadness, like rust building from a single joint. ] It does make it important not to linger on certain things. Anger, grudges...
[ sidon is a cheerful person, but he's seen mipha's death make an absolute mess of his subjects. it takes effort to be happy, and some people forget that, so caught up in their despair. it sounds like shoma is working beyond that, despite his fears—but it is hard. it does take work. he knows and respects that. ]
But if you're already thinking of other people, I don't think you have to be scared. You're moving forward. Hoping for the future is the bravest thing you can do, I think! [ he pinches shoma's cheek, giving it a little wag. ] But don't be so ready to say goodbye. Who knows? Maybe you can come visit me! I'd always be happy to welcome you to my home—you can bring your sister, too!
[ he's getting ahead of himself again, but he wants to believe this is possible. ]
Good. [ as long as sidon's willing to at least accept what he thinks is correct, he's fine here.
but...yeah. his lifespan is weird and he gives off a half-grin to that. ]
That's the part I'm still learning to figure out, I think. Some things are easier to forgive than others. Some I'm still not sure how to feel about. But...being here made it easier to think of other people. [ there's a disgruntled noise when he pinches his cheek, but there's still fondness and he does nothing to push him away. ] In a way I have to be ready to say goodbye to try and make it hurt less. But at the same time...that's what I want. I want to be able to visit other people and still talk to them and see where they came from. I want to see your home and I think Amame would love it. Hoping for it...I want to. I do know that much.
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but yeah. sometimes life isn't fair and your sister gets in trouble for getting rid of certifiable scum. he doesn't know the intricacies of modern law, but he can get the gist of it well enough to nod. ]
I'm still holding hope that time is waiting for us. [ weirder things have happened in zeldaverse. ] But I'm sure she knows that you wouldn't leave without reason.
[ they seem close. he can't imagine how hard it must've been to eventually let her go. ] ...Whatever happened, she seems to be a very good sister to you.
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I'm sure she knows, but just in case. I've gone to see her every day since her arrest, and I was just leaving from seeing her before I woke up in my pod here. [ so like. it'd be weird if he just didn't show up. the rest though... ] I have...a lot of really complicated feelings on it, but it doesn't matter. She's still my sister. [ ... ] Our parents divorced when I was nine, and she chose to go live with our mom and I stayed with Dad. We weren't exactly doing great on our own, so she got a job to try and help us out. Even when she was really busy she'd come by to buy things for me or have dinner with us when she could.
...after my dad died, she took over a lot of things to help me. I was still in elementary school, so there wasn't a lot I could do at the time. So she came by all the time to make sure everything in the house was okay and bring groceries and just spend time with me. But that's Amame. Her biggest problem has always been how much she cares about people without letting people help her when she's in over her head. [ ... ] But she's best, and I definitely would've given up a while ago without her.
[ as. evidenced by what his memory just said. can't really get around the truth of "the last six years were hell and i wanted to die but amame always cheered me up." ]
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so while this is a difficult story, his emotions are tender-hearted, softer than usual. he gives him a good squeeze. ]
I'm so grateful you had each other!
[ because if they didn't, shoma wouldn't be here; sidon's an optimist, but he's very aware of what could've happened. he is very poignantly aware of how hard amame must have worked—the struggles she must have put herself through, to support her loved ones. the things she must not have said, somehow expecting shoma not to notice. this is a pair of siblings that has gone through the gauntlet together. ]
...I understand though. With someone like that, all you want to do is return the favor. It's your turn to support her, and I know you'll do it with as much love and care as she did for you. If I were you— [ he stops and starts, laughs, a soundless puff ] I wouldn't have let anyone easily take her away, either.
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That's exactly it. I want to return it and take care of her until she doesn't need me to anymore. I don't know what that looks like yet, but...I don't plan on quitting until I figure it out. [ there's a pause though, and he considers this curiously. ] ...you'd probably feel the same about yours, wouldn't you?
[ he remembers sidon's decommission message, and he can sort of guesstimate that sidon no longer has his sister given he referenced it as reuniting with mipha, but. ]
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Hah, I would! I do. [ his emotions reflect a very old, persisting ache, but one that's grown less acute over time. ] I have no stronger conviction than the one I carry for my sister's sake.
[ when you have someone who loves and supports you so much, of course you want to give back to them once you're able to. but whatever the void can just give him the lore!! ]
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anyway that's not what shoma's thinking. he has seen baby shark before. instead, he's letting this memory play out and he finds himself already knowing how this will likely end. there are way too many familiar feelings in all of this. danger that's threatening you and your loved ones. a sister who decides to take it upon herself to be the one to step in and fight. watching the person you love the most fail to keep a promise of coming back safely. the world being a little colder and darker because the sun's gone.
the difference, of course, is amame's just in jail. mipha's gone forever, and even thinking about that is a little devastating. when the memory peters out he finds himself looking at sidon silently as if the gauge what to say. granted his emotions are basically the equivalent of a crushing sadness even if his expression shows zero of that, but it's fine. ]
...she was right to believe in you. [ this is what he settles on first. ] It's a big responsibility though.
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very unfortunately, they have a lot in common with their siblings. it helped sidon sympathize, but is also what makes him grimace as the void fades out again—he hadn't wanted to put shoma put this, specifically. he inflicts a sadness on him without meaning to.
but sidon's own feelings are less crushing. a very mirrored grief, yet one with its edges sanded down over decades. it always hurts on remembering, but it does stop being... everything, all of the time. ]
...I'm grateful you think so. [ he really is. ] I take on that responsibility without fear or hesitation. But it will take another century yet to prove I am worthy of it.
[ he smiles though, patting shoma's shoulder. ]
I hope it isn't presumptuous to say I understand... a little of what you feel. [ not all of it. just some. ] Which is why I've insisted you have much more ahead of you, even if there are moments where it seems the sun has set forever.
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time heals all wounds or whatever, but...not really. not completely. it just makes it easier to adjust it into your everyday life than letting it consume him. it's been six years since his father was killed and shoma still finds him trying to figure out how to get over it. and now amame's being taken away, and that'll take time, too.
but here's sidon who lost the person he loved the most and he's still so...this. ]
And when that century passes you'll find I was right anyway and you're worthy of it. [ easily said, like he knows a damn thing about zora society. but he thinks this over, smiling faintly before shaking his head. ]
It's not presumptuous at all, no. I think you understand some things a little better than other people here. [ just some. but... ] ...I have more ahead of me than you may really know, and that's always been the problem. Every time I think about how long my life's going to be, the idea of not being able to grow past these things is a little more terrifying.
[ somehow, since sidon's died and come back, shoma's gotten better at actually using his words and expressing things instead of going ... about his own emotions. ]
But then again, in that same vein, that time means there's more time to meet other people to help during those moments those things are too difficult to deal with. [ even if it means i'm leaving so many of them soon. ] I want to try and see what's ahead. ..."If happiness can't last forever, neither can sorrow."
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...Thank you, Shoma. I'll believe you.
[ but more pressingly, between the VR and the mentions he's made, shoma's lifespan is obviously strange for a human. so he sobers and offers him a sympathetic look, tail swishing. ]
That is the weakness of long lived peoples. [ having so many years to carry regret. he's seen it in plenty of his elders, that accumulation of sadness, like rust building from a single joint. ] It does make it important not to linger on certain things. Anger, grudges...
[ sidon is a cheerful person, but he's seen mipha's death make an absolute mess of his subjects. it takes effort to be happy, and some people forget that, so caught up in their despair. it sounds like shoma is working beyond that, despite his fears—but it is hard. it does take work. he knows and respects that. ]
But if you're already thinking of other people, I don't think you have to be scared. You're moving forward. Hoping for the future is the bravest thing you can do, I think! [ he pinches shoma's cheek, giving it a little wag. ] But don't be so ready to say goodbye. Who knows? Maybe you can come visit me! I'd always be happy to welcome you to my home—you can bring your sister, too!
[ he's getting ahead of himself again, but he wants to believe this is possible. ]
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but...yeah. his lifespan is weird and he gives off a half-grin to that. ]
That's the part I'm still learning to figure out, I think. Some things are easier to forgive than others. Some I'm still not sure how to feel about. But...being here made it easier to think of other people. [ there's a disgruntled noise when he pinches his cheek, but there's still fondness and he does nothing to push him away. ] In a way I have to be ready to say goodbye to try and make it hurt less. But at the same time...that's what I want. I want to be able to visit other people and still talk to them and see where they came from. I want to see your home and I think Amame would love it. Hoping for it...I want to. I do know that much.