[ yeah. yeeeeah. it is likewise easy to sympathize and that's the trouble, but at the same time there's something a little admirable in the way sidon carries himself even with these hardships placed on him.
time heals all wounds or whatever, but...not really. not completely. it just makes it easier to adjust it into your everyday life than letting it consume him. it's been six years since his father was killed and shoma still finds him trying to figure out how to get over it. and now amame's being taken away, and that'll take time, too.
but here's sidon who lost the person he loved the most and he's still so...this. ]
And when that century passes you'll find I was right anyway and you're worthy of it. [ easily said, like he knows a damn thing about zora society. but he thinks this over, smiling faintly before shaking his head. ]
It's not presumptuous at all, no. I think you understand some things a little better than other people here. [ just some. but... ] ...I have more ahead of me than you may really know, and that's always been the problem. Every time I think about how long my life's going to be, the idea of not being able to grow past these things is a little more terrifying.
[ somehow, since sidon's died and come back, shoma's gotten better at actually using his words and expressing things instead of going ... about his own emotions. ]
But then again, in that same vein, that time means there's more time to meet other people to help during those moments those things are too difficult to deal with. [ even if it means i'm leaving so many of them soon. ] I want to try and see what's ahead. ..."If happiness can't last forever, neither can sorrow."
[ he grins a little at the faith he's given, precious as it is. even if he's usually the one out there cheering people on, of course return fire means a lot. ]
...Thank you, Shoma. I'll believe you.
[ but more pressingly, between the VR and the mentions he's made, shoma's lifespan is obviously strange for a human. so he sobers and offers him a sympathetic look, tail swishing. ]
That is the weakness of long lived peoples. [ having so many years to carry regret. he's seen it in plenty of his elders, that accumulation of sadness, like rust building from a single joint. ] It does make it important not to linger on certain things. Anger, grudges...
[ sidon is a cheerful person, but he's seen mipha's death make an absolute mess of his subjects. it takes effort to be happy, and some people forget that, so caught up in their despair. it sounds like shoma is working beyond that, despite his fears—but it is hard. it does take work. he knows and respects that. ]
But if you're already thinking of other people, I don't think you have to be scared. You're moving forward. Hoping for the future is the bravest thing you can do, I think! [ he pinches shoma's cheek, giving it a little wag. ] But don't be so ready to say goodbye. Who knows? Maybe you can come visit me! I'd always be happy to welcome you to my home—you can bring your sister, too!
[ he's getting ahead of himself again, but he wants to believe this is possible. ]
Good. [ as long as sidon's willing to at least accept what he thinks is correct, he's fine here.
but...yeah. his lifespan is weird and he gives off a half-grin to that. ]
That's the part I'm still learning to figure out, I think. Some things are easier to forgive than others. Some I'm still not sure how to feel about. But...being here made it easier to think of other people. [ there's a disgruntled noise when he pinches his cheek, but there's still fondness and he does nothing to push him away. ] In a way I have to be ready to say goodbye to try and make it hurt less. But at the same time...that's what I want. I want to be able to visit other people and still talk to them and see where they came from. I want to see your home and I think Amame would love it. Hoping for it...I want to. I do know that much.
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time heals all wounds or whatever, but...not really. not completely. it just makes it easier to adjust it into your everyday life than letting it consume him. it's been six years since his father was killed and shoma still finds him trying to figure out how to get over it. and now amame's being taken away, and that'll take time, too.
but here's sidon who lost the person he loved the most and he's still so...this. ]
And when that century passes you'll find I was right anyway and you're worthy of it. [ easily said, like he knows a damn thing about zora society. but he thinks this over, smiling faintly before shaking his head. ]
It's not presumptuous at all, no. I think you understand some things a little better than other people here. [ just some. but... ] ...I have more ahead of me than you may really know, and that's always been the problem. Every time I think about how long my life's going to be, the idea of not being able to grow past these things is a little more terrifying.
[ somehow, since sidon's died and come back, shoma's gotten better at actually using his words and expressing things instead of going ... about his own emotions. ]
But then again, in that same vein, that time means there's more time to meet other people to help during those moments those things are too difficult to deal with. [ even if it means i'm leaving so many of them soon. ] I want to try and see what's ahead. ..."If happiness can't last forever, neither can sorrow."
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...Thank you, Shoma. I'll believe you.
[ but more pressingly, between the VR and the mentions he's made, shoma's lifespan is obviously strange for a human. so he sobers and offers him a sympathetic look, tail swishing. ]
That is the weakness of long lived peoples. [ having so many years to carry regret. he's seen it in plenty of his elders, that accumulation of sadness, like rust building from a single joint. ] It does make it important not to linger on certain things. Anger, grudges...
[ sidon is a cheerful person, but he's seen mipha's death make an absolute mess of his subjects. it takes effort to be happy, and some people forget that, so caught up in their despair. it sounds like shoma is working beyond that, despite his fears—but it is hard. it does take work. he knows and respects that. ]
But if you're already thinking of other people, I don't think you have to be scared. You're moving forward. Hoping for the future is the bravest thing you can do, I think! [ he pinches shoma's cheek, giving it a little wag. ] But don't be so ready to say goodbye. Who knows? Maybe you can come visit me! I'd always be happy to welcome you to my home—you can bring your sister, too!
[ he's getting ahead of himself again, but he wants to believe this is possible. ]
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but...yeah. his lifespan is weird and he gives off a half-grin to that. ]
That's the part I'm still learning to figure out, I think. Some things are easier to forgive than others. Some I'm still not sure how to feel about. But...being here made it easier to think of other people. [ there's a disgruntled noise when he pinches his cheek, but there's still fondness and he does nothing to push him away. ] In a way I have to be ready to say goodbye to try and make it hurt less. But at the same time...that's what I want. I want to be able to visit other people and still talk to them and see where they came from. I want to see your home and I think Amame would love it. Hoping for it...I want to. I do know that much.