[ nodding along....can't relate...but nodding along. that seems fair.
but there's an, like, awkward little smile with that. ]
I would rather it didn't most of the time. [ so fuck no, please leave him alone. but he seems to think about this. ] But I don't mind if people acknowledge my skills, even if sometimes I don't really get why.
[ sometimes you are a baby genius and you both like the praise but also are modest and also don't want to be perceived about so many other things. it's complicated. ]
[ the way i lost this tab several days ago ahhh but i'll also get us something fresh today. ]
Yeah, that's exactly it. I...[ here's the thing. this is actually kind of a point of contention for him, so even if diluc's only 23 shoma does find himself thinking about these things on and off. ] ...there are a lot of things people think of me that I wish they didn't. So I'm trying to find ways to offset it. If that means using my brain, then that's what I have to do.
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Only because I receive more than enough attention, I assure you.
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[ so... not exactly a yes. but not exactly a no. diluc is reserved now, but he used to be quite sociable as a youngster. ]
How about you? I'd think your skills are bound to attract attention.
[ baby genius... (tears up in ai:s) ]
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but there's an, like, awkward little smile with that. ]
I would rather it didn't most of the time. [ so fuck no, please leave him alone. but he seems to think about this. ] But I don't mind if people acknowledge my skills, even if sometimes I don't really get why.
[ sometimes you are a baby genius and you both like the praise but also are modest and also don't want to be perceived about so many other things. it's complicated. ]
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Wanting recognition is natural. It's an affirmation of what you do. Sometimes, it's necessary to grow.
[ people can't just exist in a void, regardless of how shy they are or aren't... ]
...But there's freedom in solitude as well. Not having to listen to what people think of you, or expect from you.
[ crying that diluc is trying really earnestly to give him this soul-searching advice at the wizened age of 23ish. ]
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Yeah, that's exactly it. I...[ here's the thing. this is actually kind of a point of contention for him, so even if diluc's only 23 shoma does find himself thinking about these things on and off. ] ...there are a lot of things people think of me that I wish they didn't. So I'm trying to find ways to offset it. If that means using my brain, then that's what I have to do.