[ again, he hates that. and so he narrows his eyes for a moment to focus. that reaction is a pattern, now, that he's keeping track of. ]
No. Even if you think he was wrong, what did Dahut say? [ because he remembers the way dahut described his relationship with scien, and he thinks that someone having that level of understanding of another person can't have said something without a basis to why.
and again scien taught him one (1) bad habit in his time here and it's just asking without leaving room for arguing. ]
inconclusive data, then. and yet this is sending him down a line of thought he doesn't know if he really wants to share, mouth drawing into a thin line. ]
Sure. Even the most brilliant minds can come up with incorrect solutions. [ he just doesn't believe this was one of those times. ]
...were you able to look at his heart before you buried it? [ "do you, currently, think this was worth it?" ]
According to the senior crew, you'll be here until the end of the tour. At least that's a long enough time to think it over. Try to make something of it.
Breaking out, obviously. [ but what that really means is debatable while he is sitting here still 90% convinced he's talking to a scien that isn't the same scien he's spoken with before. ] Whatever it takes?
Wrong. There is nothing obvious about that statement, unless you mistake me for someone whose new dream is to probably be a mass murderer.
This body and mind are clearly failing, if I'm not able to navigate my own thoughts and logic anymore. The safer protocol, rather than waiting for another security malfunction, is killing me.
I'll give you all time to ask your questions for another week or so, but after that, I'm taking matters into my own hands.
[ again, what breaking out really means is debatable when he's pretty sure this isn't the same scien. there have been enough times that he's wanted to claw out of his own body and actually take control of things again. maybe that's why the brain last during the trial impacted him the way it did. being trapped in something, by your own design or not, is never a comfortable feeling.
so. he isn't surprised to hear what he says. but he figures there isn't a point in arguing that he had thought that might be his option when the unimpressed vibes are obvious. ]
I never said out of the cell. [ oh, never mind, he will refute it apparently. ] But a week's generous. You plan to answer everything asked of you?
[but it's funny when scien makes himself hard to understand in the first place so ignore him. he makes a vague handwaving gesture.]
Anything that could be useful to the rest of you. No answers about Reliver tech, but I also don't expect anyone emotionally to be capable of asking everything they want to know tonight. Those tend to make it harder to think, after all.
Well, you aren't wrong. [ about either of those. ] I think it doesn't hurt that it's hard to think of questions on the spot. I think all of the ones I'd ask aren't that important right now. [ a light frown. ] But it gives me a week to decide what to do from here.
Not particularly. The company's been around for a while, and all of the Senior Crew signed a contract just like the rest of us. Some of them have specific things they're looking for or goals they want to achieve. People to find. Stuff like that. Obviously this Senior Crew inherited their jobs from their predecessors, and Nut & Bolt's already sticking their fingers in other ventures, or at least considering it.
A contract offer lasts about two years before it's taken away, and not all of the tours are this long. Some are even as short as two weeks. And supposedly all of this stuff with the thoughts and emotions-sharing is because of cosmic interference and cosmoelectromagnetic waves. I asked why they couldn't just tune the nanites in to block it and it's because several of the waves are used for different systems, and they either can't or don't want to tune into each own to collect the data and detect the patterns.
[ there's a pause. ]
I think some of their memories might be a little scrambled, too, but take that as you will. I tried to talk to a few of them individually but things got busy especially around the lockdown.
[scien finally pushes himself up to sitting here, tuned in enough to listen, even as his emotions continue to dwell around a contemplative state. he rests his head in his hands and closes his eyes, looking probably as if he's || this close to nodding off]
They're pretty useless, huh.
Scrambled memories, inability to fix basic technology that they should be trained on... seems like they got promoted past their level of competence.
Yup. I'm starting to think that they were put here more as a means of monitoring what we do rather than actually helping us proceed, or that they're being watched just as much as we are. But, that doesn't exactly help us, and so we're left on our own to figure things out. So whatever that means...[ he shrugs. ]
[he tilts his head, thoughtful, before deciding that a dead man has nothing to lose with a bit more honesty - ]
Most of this ship I am neutral on their fates aside from general hoping life persists... but I find myself interested in what becomes of yours. Put on a good show so I can have a laugh when I look up from Hades.
[ it is. hard to say if he finds this to be a good thing or a bad thing, though he does think that perhaps...it's not the worst outcome. ]
Sure. If anyone could find a way to send a performance review from hell, it'd be you. [ hah. ] I already said I'm going to go until I can't. But not getting off of this ship isn't an option.
Thank you, Scien. [ even if he doesn't take the option, the option's available and that's more than he'd had before. it's another route he can follow if he chooses, something that might mean something someday. ]
...if I have any other questions during the week, I'll be back. [ until tomorrow when scien's dead body shows up, but it's fine. ] But I'll keep that in mind, too.
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No. Even if you think he was wrong, what did Dahut say? [ because he remembers the way dahut described his relationship with scien, and he thinks that someone having that level of understanding of another person can't have said something without a basis to why.
and again scien taught him one (1) bad habit in his time here and it's just asking without leaving room for arguing. ]
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inconclusive data, then. and yet this is sending him down a line of thought he doesn't know if he really wants to share, mouth drawing into a thin line. ]
Sure. Even the most brilliant minds can come up with incorrect solutions. [ he just doesn't believe this was one of those times. ]
...were you able to look at his heart before you buried it? [ "do you, currently, think this was worth it?" ]
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I have to put it to use. Somehow.
[or else this will all be for nothing]
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According to the senior crew, you'll be here until the end of the tour. At least that's a long enough time to think it over. Try to make something of it.
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I'll share my notes with you if I find something worthwhile, but I'm going to remove myself from the ship before I end up causing any more harm.
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also, it's very concerning for shoma to hear this given how he lifts both eyebrows. ]
And how are you planning to do that...?
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How do you think?
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Breaking out, obviously. [ but what that really means is debatable while he is sitting here still 90% convinced he's talking to a scien that isn't the same scien he's spoken with before. ] Whatever it takes?
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Wrong. There is nothing obvious about that statement, unless you mistake me for someone whose new dream is to probably be a mass murderer.
This body and mind are clearly failing, if I'm not able to navigate my own thoughts and logic anymore. The safer protocol, rather than waiting for another security malfunction, is killing me.
I'll give you all time to ask your questions for another week or so, but after that, I'm taking matters into my own hands.
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so. he isn't surprised to hear what he says. but he figures there isn't a point in arguing that he had thought that might be his option when the unimpressed vibes are obvious. ]
I never said out of the cell. [ oh, never mind, he will refute it apparently. ] But a week's generous. You plan to answer everything asked of you?
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[but it's funny when scien makes himself hard to understand in the first place so ignore him. he makes a vague handwaving gesture.]
Anything that could be useful to the rest of you. No answers about Reliver tech, but I also don't expect anyone emotionally to be capable of asking everything they want to know tonight. Those tend to make it harder to think, after all.
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A contract offer lasts about two years before it's taken away, and not all of the tours are this long. Some are even as short as two weeks. And supposedly all of this stuff with the thoughts and emotions-sharing is because of cosmic interference and cosmoelectromagnetic waves. I asked why they couldn't just tune the nanites in to block it and it's because several of the waves are used for different systems, and they either can't or don't want to tune into each own to collect the data and detect the patterns.
[ there's a pause. ]
I think some of their memories might be a little scrambled, too, but take that as you will. I tried to talk to a few of them individually but things got busy especially around the lockdown.
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They're pretty useless, huh.
Scrambled memories, inability to fix basic technology that they should be trained on... seems like they got promoted past their level of competence.
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[he tilts his head, thoughtful, before deciding that a dead man has nothing to lose with a bit more honesty - ]
Most of this ship I am neutral on their fates aside from general hoping life persists... but I find myself interested in what becomes of yours. Put on a good show so I can have a laugh when I look up from Hades.
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Sure. If anyone could find a way to send a performance review from hell, it'd be you. [ hah. ] I already said I'm going to go until I can't. But not getting off of this ship isn't an option.
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And if you care to take a stop in Arpéchéle after all this, it's obvious enough that you'd be able to appeal to whatever Scien Brofiise and Dahut you find there. Make use of every resource, even if it's us.
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Thank you, Scien. [ even if he doesn't take the option, the option's available and that's more than he'd had before. it's another route he can follow if he chooses, something that might mean something someday. ]
...if I have any other questions during the week, I'll be back. [ until tomorrow when scien's dead body shows up, but it's fine. ] But I'll keep that in mind, too.