[ that makes him laugh because ow? brutal? but also completely fair. ]
I don't know if I'd blame you. [ ... ] But I am glad someone actually saw the kind of skill you possess and didn't focus on your age. How long ago was that?
Yeah, definitely. [ he can relate to that a little too well. ] Moreso when I was younger, but...it's still not easy even now. People look at you and they just decide what kind of person you are without actually learning what you're capable of or what you can do. It's pretty annoying.
Trust me. If I ever ended up like that guy, I'd be the first to want to change me.
[ but he doesn't get to comment too much further because i think it's funny if she gets to see this, ending at 13:44. though she may get a sense he's thinking about the wink psync (with regards to being young and intelligent) some of those details may come across as fuzzy to her. ]
[ it's a mess, just based on his facial expressions with the question, but he pauses as he thinks of how to explain it. ]
...a few years ago, my health checkup at my elementary school came back as abnormal. Instead of going to a hospital I was sent to a special institution that focuses on gene editing and gene therapy. The director there told me there was something really wrong with my genes and that the only way to save my own life was to submit to gene therapy.
[ ... ]
I found out a while later that the whole thing was a lie, and it was a cover for using me for human experimentations. To...discover the key to immortality. And I've been like this since then.
[ sometimes...you are just screwed because of someone else and become immortally 12. ]
[ gently puts the "last baby standing" crown on anise. ]
Same age as Mizuki. [ hence...why mizuki was in that memory, he does not say. ] But yeah. The director didn't completely stop the aging process in me, but it's slowed down almost entirely. So...this is it for the rest of my long, long life.
...until recently, I didn't think there was ever an option to fix it. I hated that. I hated that I was going to be like this forever and all of the things that meant. But since coming here and talking to a few people, it feels like maybe I have options I can try to take.
I don't know. Maybe hate is a strong word, but I wish it wasn't like this when I didn't ask for it in the first place.
Not many. [ he'll admit that. ] The director who did this back home was killed six years ago, so any attempts at finding out how this was done are gone. But after talking to people like Scien and Dahut, I figure I could start looking into gene editing myself. See if there's something I can discover or a path I can take to try and...even if I don't undo it all, at least consider rewriting it again.
[ he sounds hesitant about it because that's still. intense. but he's trying. ]
Being here meant meeting people from other worlds who could point me in a different direction. So I guess I'd call that a plus. [ ... ] Until then, not a lot of people on the ship really know the truth either.
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Haha, of course not! I think I'd go nuts if I had to spend every day with someone like him.
[ mean. ]
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I don't know if I'd blame you. [ ... ] But I am glad someone actually saw the kind of skill you possess and didn't focus on your age. How long ago was that?
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I'm guessing you know what it's like too, don't you? Being underestimated because of your age.
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Yeah, definitely. [ he can relate to that a little too well. ] Moreso when I was younger, but...it's still not easy even now. People look at you and they just decide what kind of person you are without actually learning what you're capable of or what you can do. It's pretty annoying.
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... Make sure you don't grow up to be like Dist, okay?
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Trust me. If I ever ended up like that guy, I'd be the first to want to change me.
[ but he doesn't get to comment too much further because i think it's funny if she gets to see this, ending at 13:44. though she may get a sense he's thinking about the wink psync (with regards to being young and intelligent) some of those details may come across as fuzzy to her. ]
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... I guess school kinda sucked for you too, huh.
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It was fine until it wasn't, you know? I managed for a while and then I just kinda stopped caring about trying.
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So like, what's this "gene engineering" thing you two were talking about? Um... genome stuff?
[ ??? ]
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...a few years ago, my health checkup at my elementary school came back as abnormal. Instead of going to a hospital I was sent to a special institution that focuses on gene editing and gene therapy. The director there told me there was something really wrong with my genes and that the only way to save my own life was to submit to gene therapy.
[ ... ]
I found out a while later that the whole thing was a lie, and it was a cover for using me for human experimentations. To...discover the key to immortality. And I've been like this since then.
[ sometimes...you are just screwed because of someone else and become immortally 12. ]
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Like what?
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... Wait, how old are you actually, then?
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Same age as Mizuki. [ hence...why mizuki was in that memory, he does not say. ] But yeah. The director didn't completely stop the aging process in me, but it's slowed down almost entirely. So...this is it for the rest of my long, long life.
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... Do you hate it?
[ being eternally 12... ]
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...until recently, I didn't think there was ever an option to fix it. I hated that. I hated that I was going to be like this forever and all of the things that meant. But since coming here and talking to a few people, it feels like maybe I have options I can try to take.
I don't know. Maybe hate is a strong word, but I wish it wasn't like this when I didn't ask for it in the first place.
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I think if it were me, I'd feel pretty conflicted about the whole thing...
What kind of options do you have now?
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[ he sounds hesitant about it because that's still. intense. but he's trying. ]
Being here meant meeting people from other worlds who could point me in a different direction. So I guess I'd call that a plus. [ ... ] Until then, not a lot of people on the ship really know the truth either.
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I know you're probably not planning on being reckless about this, but... be careful, all the same. Okay?
[ shoma's situation sucks, but it could get so much worse. ]
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[ all of that being said... ]
Enough about that though. It doesn't change what I said about you and being glad other people saw your skills and not your age.