...no, it's not really a cruel question. I get why you'd ask. Just because my body's not aging doesn't mean the rest isn't. [ which is his way of saying "obviously i have thought about this, i am eighteen years old." but he focuses on their walk, seemingly heading for the dog park first. ]
I...already know how things are going to go if I pursue what I want. The odds aren't great. [ a wry smile. ] But at this point it's almost stupid not to just to get it over with. Maybe someday in the future something else could happen but circumstances and people at home aren't nearly as kind. So I doubt it. [ ... ] It's nice to think about though, I guess. What it'd be like if the outcome were different.
[ he returns shoma's smile with a sympathetic one of his own, settling a hand back on his shoulder to squeeze carefully ]
If it is plaguing you to keep it silent, then I do believe it is best to be forthright. You have survived much more than a foray into romance. [ still, he shakes his head ] But I would not be so quickly pessimistic...
However things may play out, you are still beloved.
It's not really pessimism when I know exactly how she is. [ it's like a gentle correction, but he's pretty sure of this. he does appreciate the support though. ] But...that's a good way looking at it. There's been a lot that's happened here that's been worse than trying to tell a girl I like her. I got through all of that. And in the end...there're a lot of people here I still care about, too.
[ so at least he can fall back on that, he thinks. being here in a place where so many people actually are kind to him and care about him will never not surprise him, but he's grown much better at accepting it and returning affections. but...moving onward. ]
...what about you though? You have to have someone waiting for you somewhere, don't you? [ like. dion is objectively (to shoma) still a very good person. he'd be fucking shocked if this dude was single. ]
dion seems rather pleased by that response, just nodding his head. ]
Still, I wish you the best of luck. Should you need company in the aftermath, I am more than willing to spend it speaking with you.
[ he's here for you!!
to answer shoma's question, ] Ah, as for myself... I am most fortunate to have someone indeed. It is not a connection I expected to make here, and yet, as I said, these bonds persist.
Thanks, I appreciate it. [ he says, as a dude who is fully aware that his luck is shit when it comes to this and has quietly decided he may just lie in the dirt elsewhere when the inevitable happens and not harsh anyone else's vibes.
especially when... ]
Wait, really? [ he's not that surprised considering lucien and viktor are themselves, but he's also a little surprised because he would think being dead would make things difficult. ] That's...good. I'm happy for you. [ a pause. ] I mean you are happy, aren't you?
[ the implication is there but just making sure my guy. ]
[ we can celebrate dion's relationship, i think that's completely fair. ]
No. I think you're the type of person who wouldn't want to hurt someone else's feelings, but I don't think you'd force yourself into something that makes you unhappy either. Juuuust making sure though. [ a pause. ] Congratulations.
Then that's all that matters to me. [ he really is kind of a bro about this. shoma doesn't always entirely believe happiness is something he's able to have, but he does think the people he likes the most deserve it and will fight anyone who tries to take it.
a few more dogs trot up to the two of them and shoma's immediately scritching their ears and letting them lick at his hands. dogs are healing, etc. ]
It almost feels too good to be true, but that just makes it even better knowing it is, you know? We actually made it work. A lot of people have missed you. It's probably gonna take a few days for all of us to really catch up. But the break's nice.
[ he has been really loving this no-murder weekend, actually. ]
[ dion will just sit down cross-legged on the grass, comfortable as the dogs flop around them.
all weeks should be no-murder and dog filled tbh ]
It does fill one with hope and determination for whatever is next. [ momentarily thoughtful ] Though we know little of what awaits at the Nut & Bolt headquarters, after overcoming death it feels as though there's little else that is insurmountable.
Considering it's usually impossible to beat death in most circumstances, it does sort of feel that way. Even if it means getting a little creative with whatever happens next. We made all of this work, didn't we? Hopefully it wasn't too difficult on your end.
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I...already know how things are going to go if I pursue what I want. The odds aren't great. [ a wry smile. ] But at this point it's almost stupid not to just to get it over with. Maybe someday in the future something else could happen but circumstances and people at home aren't nearly as kind. So I doubt it. [ ... ] It's nice to think about though, I guess. What it'd be like if the outcome were different.
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If it is plaguing you to keep it silent, then I do believe it is best to be forthright. You have survived much more than a foray into romance. [ still, he shakes his head ] But I would not be so quickly pessimistic...
However things may play out, you are still beloved.
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[ so at least he can fall back on that, he thinks. being here in a place where so many people actually are kind to him and care about him will never not surprise him, but he's grown much better at accepting it and returning affections. but...moving onward. ]
...what about you though? You have to have someone waiting for you somewhere, don't you? [ like. dion is objectively (to shoma) still a very good person. he'd be fucking shocked if this dude was single. ]
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dion seems rather pleased by that response, just nodding his head. ]
Still, I wish you the best of luck. Should you need company in the aftermath, I am more than willing to spend it speaking with you.
[ he's here for you!!
to answer shoma's question, ] Ah, as for myself... I am most fortunate to have someone indeed. It is not a connection I expected to make here, and yet, as I said, these bonds persist.
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Thanks, I appreciate it. [ he says, as a dude who is fully aware that his luck is shit when it comes to this and has quietly decided he may just lie in the dirt elsewhere when the inevitable happens and not harsh anyone else's vibes.
especially when... ]
Wait, really? [ he's not that surprised considering lucien and viktor are themselves, but he's also a little surprised because he would think being dead would make things difficult. ] That's...good. I'm happy for you. [ a pause. ] I mean you are happy, aren't you?
[ the implication is there but just making sure my guy. ]
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anyway, he laughs ]
Do I seem the sort to pursue a relationship that would make me unhappy?
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No. I think you're the type of person who wouldn't want to hurt someone else's feelings, but I don't think you'd force yourself into something that makes you unhappy either. Juuuust making sure though. [ a pause. ] Congratulations.
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Thank you for your concern, [ he's such a bro ] but I can assure you that I am more than happy.
[ crouches down to pet a doggo that comes running up ]
Even more so to be back here with all of you.
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a few more dogs trot up to the two of them and shoma's immediately scritching their ears and letting them lick at his hands. dogs are healing, etc. ]
It almost feels too good to be true, but that just makes it even better knowing it is, you know? We actually made it work. A lot of people have missed you. It's probably gonna take a few days for all of us to really catch up. But the break's nice.
[ he has been really loving this no-murder weekend, actually. ]
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all weeks should be no-murder and dog filled tbh ]
It does fill one with hope and determination for whatever is next. [ momentarily thoughtful ] Though we know little of what awaits at the Nut & Bolt headquarters, after overcoming death it feels as though there's little else that is insurmountable.
[ lol ]
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Considering it's usually impossible to beat death in most circumstances, it does sort of feel that way. Even if it means getting a little creative with whatever happens next. We made all of this work, didn't we? Hopefully it wasn't too difficult on your end.
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It was not too arduous. Though I believe the crystal rats did leave bruises on some of us given the speed at which they came down...
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Some of them were bubblewrapped, so hopefully the bruises aren't that big. [ sowwy. kinda. ]
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