It doesn't leave. [ this is more said to himself than anything. he had suspected this before, that there was a possibility that the anger just clung to whoever was affected even after everything was done. but he doesn't like the confirmation. ]
Did you want to try and kill anyone else? Or was Margaret enough at the time?
...it's going to be there for a little while, I think. [ it's the same as the others, and he's actually kind of sad this is happening to him. ] Nobody's figured out a way to stop it yet, but that doesn't make it any more fair that you have to live with it while you're in there. I'm sorry this is happening.
[ don't just say that ahhhh. but that gets a slight smile. ]
You have nothing to apologize to me for. [ it would maybe be a different story if he were closer to margaret, but, well. shoma's biased in who he likes. this has always been true. of everyone who has died or will die this weekend, dion was always first. ]
...sorry your hand was forced, if anything. [ ... ] Is there anything I can do for you for the night, at least? I mean I don't know how, but...just in case.
There is little I desire more than the company of those I care for. I should like to hear more about you, Sir Shoma. Perhaps something unrelated to solving murders. For example, your favourite place on Earth, your desires for the future, or your first love...
Well, I'm not gonna say no to sticking around for a while. [ he is already on the floor. and he smiles a little because he doesn't mind talking about things unrelated to murder? actually he would love to talk about murder less. ]
I can't promise any of that is exciting. But...I don't know about if it's my favorite, but there's this place my dad used to perform and I used to go to all the time as a kid. It's a department store, but there's an amusement park on the rooftop. Sometimes I'll still go there to ride the ferris wheel when I want to be alone and think. After everything that's happened lately, I think my whole life's going to change again. But...someday I do want to go to college and actually learn more about robotic engineering. I built my first robot when I was twelve, and I made Roboji like a week before we got here, but I want to get better at it. Do it professionally.
[ he does not answer the first love question but he does. blush a little and looks at something else entirely. ]
[ yeah but you're dying so he can still run away if you don't confront him, thanks!
but ah... ]
You know my circumstances, Dion. I'm going to be alive for a very, very long time if I never find a way to fix this. The idea of having that much time and such a long future ahead is a little scary, especially knowing it'll be longer than others'.
[ it's a horrifying and somewhat lonely concept to think about the future and how someday it will be empty of the people he loves. ]
But if you want to think more positively, I guess that also means more time to accomplish better things. That part's not so bad.
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... No. I was still angry. But the adrenaline had faded, and I could see reason more clearly.
But if I was mistaken about her death, and she continued to fight me again, I would have continued to pursue her.
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Did you want to try and kill anyone else? Or was Margaret enough at the time?
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[ but ]
But I do not trust myself. I still feel... [ a breath ] I still feel that anger in me.
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You needn't worry yourself so over my shortcomings. My reckoning is long overdue.
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but he laughs a little at that ]
I am grateful for it, though... sorry to have put you in such a position.
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You have nothing to apologize to me for. [ it would maybe be a different story if he were closer to margaret, but, well. shoma's biased in who he likes. this has always been true. of everyone who has died or will die this weekend, dion was always first. ]
...sorry your hand was forced, if anything. [ ... ] Is there anything I can do for you for the night, at least? I mean I don't know how, but...just in case.
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There is little I desire more than the company of those I care for. I should like to hear more about you, Sir Shoma. Perhaps something unrelated to solving murders. For example, your favourite place on Earth, your desires for the future, or your first love...
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I can't promise any of that is exciting. But...I don't know about if it's my favorite, but there's this place my dad used to perform and I used to go to all the time as a kid. It's a department store, but there's an amusement park on the rooftop. Sometimes I'll still go there to ride the ferris wheel when I want to be alone and think. After everything that's happened lately, I think my whole life's going to change again. But...someday I do want to go to college and actually learn more about robotic engineering. I built my first robot when I was twelve, and I made Roboji like a week before we got here, but I want to get better at it. Do it professionally.
[ he does not answer the first love question but he does. blush a little and looks at something else entirely. ]
The future's kind of a daunting thing.
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but he smiles, relaxing as he listens to shoma speak. ]
Daunting? Why so?
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but ah... ]
You know my circumstances, Dion. I'm going to be alive for a very, very long time if I never find a way to fix this. The idea of having that much time and such a long future ahead is a little scary, especially knowing it'll be longer than others'.
[ it's a horrifying and somewhat lonely concept to think about the future and how someday it will be empty of the people he loves. ]
But if you want to think more positively, I guess that also means more time to accomplish better things. That part's not so bad.