Our parents separated when I was younger, and she went to live with our mom. [ he's not sure if that fully explains what dion's asking, but it's true regardless. ]
I see, I am sorry to hear it... Though I understand how it would breed independence. [ ... ] Still, this must be far removed from your experience at home.
[ he hopes ]
Perhaps it would not be so terrible to unlearn some of those habits.
...I'm not going to lie to you and say I am completely at ease and at home with all of this. Being here is...really different from home, even with some of the things that are similar. [ there's a pause. ]
Dion, do you even know how to unlearn something that's just a part of who you are?
... No. Though I have a fair few habits I wish that I could.
[ he looks a little sheepish, caught ]
But we've just spoken about dependence, Sir Shoma. You needn't unlearn it alone. It can start as simple as answering a question honestly, rather than downplaying an experience or emotion.
[ he sort of lifts an eyebrow as if to go "see?" but he politely chooses not to say so. ]
...I guess that's a fair point. [ he says, as a person who is terrible at answering questions honestly sometimes. ] It's the downplaying I haven't figured out how to undo. That's normal at this point. But I get it. A small step in that direction and stuff.
A small step. [ he pauses ] But I will say, despite my manner of speech, I am not as wise as I seem. You are free to disregard my advice, though I hope you don't.
I'm not really in a position to be disregarding advice when that's what I've been doing for...a while. [ vague, but alright. ] And it's something I need to stop running from. I think "being wise" is all in how you look at it anyway. It's the conviction of what you're saying more than what's said, you know? So...I'm won't.
[ he ducks his head a little, sheepish but a tiny bit pleased. ]
...I'll tell you about all of this another time if you want. It's only fair that we know what kind of things the ship is capable of subjecting us to. But right now I think it's...too much. [ he will admit that. ]
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he tilts his head ]
Are you...? What of your family?
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I've been living by myself for some time now. My sister tries to come visit a lot, but there are times she can't.
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That is unusual for someone of your age... Is there a reason you are separated?
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I see, I am sorry to hear it... Though I understand how it would breed independence. [ ... ] Still, this must be far removed from your experience at home.
[ he hopes ]
Perhaps it would not be so terrible to unlearn some of those habits.
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...I'm not going to lie to you and say I am completely at ease and at home with all of this. Being here is...really different from home, even with some of the things that are similar. [ there's a pause. ]
Dion, do you even know how to unlearn something that's just a part of who you are?
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[ he looks a little sheepish, caught ]
But we've just spoken about dependence, Sir Shoma. You needn't unlearn it alone. It can start as simple as answering a question honestly, rather than downplaying an experience or emotion.
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...I guess that's a fair point. [ he says, as a person who is terrible at answering questions honestly sometimes. ] It's the downplaying I haven't figured out how to undo. That's normal at this point. But I get it. A small step in that direction and stuff.
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I'm not really in a position to be disregarding advice when that's what I've been doing for...a while. [ vague, but alright. ] And it's something I need to stop running from. I think "being wise" is all in how you look at it anyway. It's the conviction of what you're saying more than what's said, you know? So...I'm won't.
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You are most wise, Sir Shoma. Then I do hope you will take this advice to heart.
Now, if you are tired please let me know and I shall leave you to rest.
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...I'll tell you about all of this another time if you want. It's only fair that we know what kind of things the ship is capable of subjecting us to. But right now I think it's...too much. [ he will admit that. ]
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[ this would be such a death flag if this thread wasn't from last week ]
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Thank you. [ he. very desperately needs the breather, yeah. ] I promise I'll tell you anything you want later.
[ and we can call this one a close if you want spoon to stay current! ]