[ me wondering why there's a stray "away" there that's what i get for doing this on mobile ig. anyway! yeah! it...yeah. he looks both stricken and mortified, actually, for diluc to have to witness that and for a moment he goes extremely still.

like...he feels slightly okay because he knows he can trust diluc not to think he's a horrible person. but on the other hand this is still. bad. ]

...thanks. [ it's hard to give condolences and it's equally hard to take them, sometimes. ] I think about it a lot. How maybe if I'd noticed some things, I could have helped prevent this from happening. [ and he pauses again, looking at him for a moment as if he's trying to decide something. and whatever he's looking for, he seems to think diluc has. so...he takes a risk. ] It's been a few years since then. I know I can't change things though, so it feels dumb to think about it. Even if I can't always help it, I guess.