[ taking a sip of his coffee and gently looking into the void... ]

It's hard to have to face all of this. Usually it's easy enough to acknowledge things and then move on because something else is happening, but in a case like this where even when we're expected to keep moving the reminders of what happened are all there and aren't showing any signs of letting up. It's difficult to know how much you're allowed to really respond in times like these. Or maybe that's just me.