We were the only ones who didn't fall over asleep. So. Either someone was coming for us, or it was... [Obviously. At the time she hadn't guessed herself.] We thought maybe we should go to the armoury. And as we were walking to the tram and I didn't see anyone else or hear any signs of life except the two of us, I just thought, well, he's twice my size. If he turned on me I wouldn't stand a chance.
And I'd been sure something would happen this week. I'm too weak, and I don't understand anything that's going on, and I'm no use to anyone here. And it's so infuriating. I'd be the easiest to pick off and now I was certainly going to be. And I couldn't...it enraged me.
When we got to the tram I pushed him at the last moment and took it myself. I had to get a head start. To set up a trap, and to arm myself. I'd never make it if he got a weapon first. If he got within five feet of me I'd be dead for sure. And I refuse to let anyone take my life from me. I've worked too hard to keep it Shoma, it doesn't belong to anyone else but me. No one.
no never (but i'm good if you want to handwave the rest kabby to free yourself!!)
[ oh neat, it manifested as paranoia. great. he's loving that. but he doesn't interrupt her as she speaks because that's also kind of horrifically sad to think this all started just because she was scared and then grew angry that she was scared, basically. or at least that's how he sees it. ]
...it makes sense. We all know what Thursday nights mean by now. And if you hadn't thought it'd be you, of course you'd suspect the other person. But...something else caught you instead and drove you ahead to keep yourself alive.
[ the will to live. everyone who has been affected has something they so desperately want, and rosamund's will to survive and live her life must have been just enough. ]
...waiting until the morning probably felt too long, didn't it?
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you can ignore this i'm all over the dang place
[She winces.]
We were the only ones who didn't fall over asleep. So. Either someone was coming for us, or it was... [Obviously. At the time she hadn't guessed herself.] We thought maybe we should go to the armoury. And as we were walking to the tram and I didn't see anyone else or hear any signs of life except the two of us, I just thought, well, he's twice my size. If he turned on me I wouldn't stand a chance.
And I'd been sure something would happen this week. I'm too weak, and I don't understand anything that's going on, and I'm no use to anyone here. And it's so infuriating. I'd be the easiest to pick off and now I was certainly going to be. And I couldn't...it enraged me.
When we got to the tram I pushed him at the last moment and took it myself. I had to get a head start. To set up a trap, and to arm myself. I'd never make it if he got a weapon first. If he got within five feet of me I'd be dead for sure. And I refuse to let anyone take my life from me. I've worked too hard to keep it Shoma, it doesn't belong to anyone else but me. No one.
no never (but i'm good if you want to handwave the rest kabby to free yourself!!)
...it makes sense. We all know what Thursday nights mean by now. And if you hadn't thought it'd be you, of course you'd suspect the other person. But...something else caught you instead and drove you ahead to keep yourself alive.
[ the will to live. everyone who has been affected has something they so desperately want, and rosamund's will to survive and live her life must have been just enough. ]
...waiting until the morning probably felt too long, didn't it?