[ yeah, that's the problem. he's self aware enough to know he can and should be doing more, and he's historically been the only one to make an effort on his own and of his own volition. but being surrounded by five unmotivated people makes it way too easy to fall into their pace, and once he's been dragged down, it's hard to get himself to want to get back up. ]

Ah... that's nice that you have her, at least.

[ though part of him is just like "damn this really is a ship full of people with sisters and sad lives, what the fuck" ]

Do you at least have a roommate or something? I mean, you're not completely by yourself, are you?